A Loveless Affair

I wanted you from the very beginning.
I needed you and prayed for you.
So tired of long nights and swollen feet,
Longing for stability, comfort and peace.
And it was luck that we did meet
I was smitten with your plush carpet, cool air condition and high rise suite.
Bagels, fruit and salads
All the perks, I lovingly entertained.
I know they weren't meant for me,
But the ones who pretend making decisions.
Yet, I never complained.
My hour lunch crowded and fast food cashiers sneer.
So sorry you hate your job,
It's not my fault, dear.
Back to my cube so plush,
No private door, no window,
But that's asking too much.
Artificially you ask, "How are you?"
I reply, "Just fine!" on the surface but not within.
But you don't care if it's lie.
Not asking is a corporate sin.
You treated me so much better,
Than those that had me before.
Never would I have thought of leaving you,
Never would I walk out the door.
Yet I did.
And I stressed.
For 2 weeks leave,
I thought I could make it without you,
And I believed it. Really believed.
But my wallet grieved
My bank account heaved,
And my debtors received…
No payments.
Now what can I do?
I dread the very thought of you.
Your low wages and 2 different faces
And is that what you call a raise?
My nervous you're working,
My privates you're jerking
but I can't get away from you.
Your sorry bonus
after taxes
And you think I should sit subdued.
If I go to hell,
this time tomorrow
It's more a pleasure than working for you.
My misery spreads daily throughout my body,
Taking one organ at a time.
How can I leave you? God please help me!
Deliver me, is my soul still mine?

Or is it theirs?