A Night Spent with You

Two nights ago

I don't think it meant that much to you

You needed to feel a soft warm body

And, well, I have one

But I didn't sleep

I just lay there and listened to you breathe

Felt your arms wrapped around me

Your head pressed against my breast

I was amused at how easily you slept

In the various positions I rolled you in

While in search of the same comfortable sleep you had found

Even in the early hours of the morning

I laid there and wondered if I would ever see you again

Knowing the answer was probably not

I willed myself to go to sleep

So I would have less visions and memories of you

To erase from my mind in the days to come

It would be hard enough to forget

How your lips felt when we kissed

And how your body felt next to mine

I didn't need the added images that

Continuing to be in your presence would provide

I considered leaving you while you slept

But I didn't want to

I wanted to be there in the morning

Maybe to hear you say you wanted to see me again

Or maybe to hear you simply say goodbye

Or maybe I had the same need to be close

To a warm body

I guess the truth is

That I hadn't expected it to mean that much to me

But somehow I already knew that it did

This time, I had gotten close enough to the fire

And was going to get burned

When morning finally came

I had places to go and a new day to begin

You seemed quite content to lay there with me for a while

But it was time to move forward

Whatever that meant

With or without you I knew the time had come for me to go

And lingering wasn't going to make things different

You walked me to your door

Held me close and told me you had enjoyed my company

And that we would talk later...

I spent the night alone last night

At least I slept.