About Me and My Writing

I can't really say when I first got saved because for as long as I can remember I have always been conscious of God. Even at a very young age. I can remember being five years old and even though I had never heard of a God and no one had ever mentioned Him I still knew He was there. I didn't quite know what it was but I knew something was there. I just always felt this presence in the back of my mind and knew that there was something powerful out there. I guess that was His way of calling to me. I didn't actually get serious about my relationship with God until my first year at Oral Roberts University and that's when I started writing. The first thing I wrote was "Flight of The Butterfly." When I wrote it I was watching t.v on my laptop and then suddenly I knew that I needed to write. It was so weird.

Now let me say this.......I don't really see myself as much of a writer. To me a writer is someone who lives and breathes writing, I don't. I write whenever the feeling comes over me. Usually what happens is I'll be doing something like watching t.v. or reading a book or something and then suddenly a thought literally "pops" into my head and I think "I need to write". Then I do and when I'm done I go back to whatever i was doing before. I like to write but it's not what I do. (I do love reading however. Now, that's what I DO.)

I am still utterly amazed at the things that I have written. Every time I go through and read my work, I am so shocked. I always end up thinking, "Wow, I wrote that? Seriously?" Half the time I don't really remember what I wrote. It's almost like my physical mind goes to sleep and then my spirit pushes forth and writes. Then when its done I'm just left with a distant memory of writing the piece. Weird right? I don't know if you can understand what I'm saying or if I'm even making any sense. But it's true. I become a different person when I write. I guess that's how I know that's it's God using me to write.

All of these pieces were written at a time when I was struggling with my faith and relationship with God. To me that's so weird because you would think that God would use me to write at times when my faith is strong and things are going well, but that is so not the case. At times when I feel so lost and confused and defeated those are the times the Lord decides to use me to write something beautiful. I guess writing is what the Lord wants me to do, so I guess I will.

I want to thank all of you that have already read some of my work and left me comments. You have no idea how much that means to me. I get so touched and shocked when people read what I've written and say great things about them. I appreciate it so much. Please, continue to read my work and make sure to leave comments because that's truly the best part, hearing what others have to say about my work. Thank you all and God Bless.