After All is Said and Done

I went by just to say hi,
And there you were.
I called out to you,
But I guess you did not hear.
Maybe you did not want to.
I don't want you back.
Let me make that clear.
All I want to know is this,
Did you ever really care?
Did the things I did for you,
To make your life better,
Matter after all?
Do you think of me,
Every once in a while?
And do you ache,
With a bitter sweet smile?
All I want to know,
Is that maybe once upon-a-time,
You really loved me.
All I want to know,
Is that at one time,
It really mattered.
All I want to know,
Is that you miss me.
I know that it can never be
What we once were,
It wasn't good for you
And it wasn't good for me.
But what I really want to know,
After all is said and done,
For you, did I ever really matter?
3/17/2004