Alcoholism, the Lifelong Battle with Addiction

I'm an alcoholic who deals with my alcoholism on a daily basis. I attend Alcoholics Anonymous meetings on a regular basis and I know that I have to deal with the lifelong battle with addiction. I have acceptance of myself as an alcoholic.

Addiction

Addiction can take many forms in life, food, drugs, alcohol, gambling, etc. My lifelong battle with addiction can quickly pull me into an addiction to anything. Therefore, I have to be careful when I do anything because I know that I can become addicted to something quickly because I have an addiction personality. Not many people would admit to having such a problem but, this is what I have to deal with and it's who I am, I'm an addict.

Lifelong Battle With Addiction

Due to the fact that I know that I have a lifelong battle with addiction, there are certain things in life that I know that I must avoid if I want to continue living a sober life.

Sea Of Addiction Temptations

I know the factors that can lead me down the road of no return, into a sea of addiction temptations that could rule my life forever.

Triggered Back Into My Addiction

When I go to the grocery store, I stay away from the wine and beer aisle. I know that I could get triggered back into my addiction with alcohol by just simply being around it. I've learned from experience that if I want to stay sober, I have to stay away from alcohol, period. Sure, I can walk by alcohol in the store but I know that I can't be around it for long without being triggered back into my addiction of alcoholism.

My Alcoholism

I know that I have such a fragile state when it comes to my alcoholism, that I can't even be around people who are actively drinking alcohol socially.

Stay Sober

If I am to stay sober, I have to stay away from alcohol, completely. What this means, is that I can't even have alcohol within my own house. If I go to other people's houses and they have alcohol in their house and are actively drinking alcohol in front of me, I get an uneasy feeling inside and feel the need to leave.

Alcohol

While nobody ever knows, for sure, if they will ever drink alcohol again, you have a far greater chance of staying sober if you stay away from alcohol, completely.

Alcoholics Anonymous

While the things I hear in the rooms of Alcoholics Anonymous sometimes say that as long as you are strong in your AA program, you can be around other people who are drinking alcohol. I disagree with this, because being around people that were actively drinking alcohol have led me to relapse.

Relapsed

The reasons that I relapsed could probably be debated forever, but; I know that if I wasn't around alcohol, I wouldn't have relapsed.

Drunk People Drinking Alcohol

One of the problems is if I'm in a nightclub, around drunk people drinking alcohol, that are having a great time, I want to have a great time too. One of the conclusions that I'm led to believe is that they're having a great time because they're drinking alcohol. Knowing this causes, me to want alcohol; which leads me to relapse.

The Alcoholic Can't Be Around Alcohol

One of the things that an alcoholic finds difficult to accept is the fact that they just can't be around alcohol, period. When an alcoholic accepts the fact that they just can't be around alcohol, they're much more likely to stay sober for an extended period of time.