Always Molested
For anyone who was molested as a child, the memory of the experience remains forever raw. You can push it to the back of the mind and almost forget until something happens that pulls it forward and makes it new again.
This is dedicated to those fighting the same battle I do everyday. You are not alone in your fear, self-loathing, uncertainity, shame or whatever else you might feel. I am with you because I understand.
I dreamt of you last night.
Your cold dark features
Made me cringe in fear
Once again.
I smelled your putrid breath;
Hitting me full force
And so I recoiled
In panic.
I felt your slimy hands
Probing my body.
My mind flew elsewhere;
To escape.
After all of these years
You still have a hold
Of the child I was.
She's not gone.
Do I invade your dreams?
Do you feel regret?
Somehow I think not
So I cry.
Published by Charlotte Kuchinsky
I'm an author, columnist and poet. I have done extensive business, creative and technical writing and written curriclum for high schools, colleges and universities. I am currently the principal writer for a... View profile
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Post a CommentFortunately, I have not had this happen to me personally. Unfortunately, people I am very close to have had it happen to them. It can really mess a person up, but don't ever feel less worthy as a person. The frequency with which this type of thing happens is insane. I can't understand it.
Great job
Can relate :((
You have made a great poem from your pain. Great job!
Sorry that you had to go through that Charlotte.
Returning comments while watching TV. . . . Every author in some way portrays himself in his works, even if it be against his will. ~Goethe
It's funny how at the time you can push it to the back of your mind, but later, when you feel safe, you have to deal with it. Really related to the line, "My mind flew elsewhere."
I'm thankful this never happened to me. Unfortunately it was something I had to deal with though. One of my ex's molested my younger sister. He just about ruined our lives.
I have had few bitter experiences though thankfully no physical abuse. I have forgiven but the brutalilty of deceptions replay in my mind. I just think - forgive them for they know not what they have done. But, why at all in the first place? Hopefully justice will be meted out at some time. I am fullly with you, Charlotte, and thanks for bringing out societies' ills - siva
The hardest part is how it can affect our lives when we're adults. My incident wasn't horrible, as was yours... but now I understand why I've been repelled by some things that others would consider no big deal. I didn't even realize that was the cause until I was dating, and I'm still unable to get over it. But don't ever, ever blame yourself for what happened. The other person is the one who forced himself on you.