An Open Letter for My Mom

Mother's day is approaching once again, and I miss my mom so much, I think about her just about everyday. I miss talking to her, especially when I need advice and a shoulder to lean on.

So mom here is an open letter to you, from me.

Mom you were always there for me, you took wonderful care of me ,even when I was bad, you taught me right from wrong, and cheered me up when I was sad. You kissed my boo boo's away. I really miss all those late nights when I would sit up with you watching Alfred Hitchcock ( claiming I was scared and couldn't sleep ,I just wanted to be with you ), I also so loved the stories you told me about Ireland, and how we would someday go there ( if only we could have), but we did in our dreams .And the time I was sleigh riding and ran into a tree, my friends came and got you, and you were there in a heartbeat to save me. The day I went to the hospital for an operation, you were there and hovered over me , you were so worried for me, when I came home you took such wonderful care of me. Oh I can't forget all those times I pretended to be sick, so I could stay home with you, eat lunch with you, and watch soap operas with you, being with you meant the world to me. As I got older, I know I became somewhat unmanageable, and for that I am so sorry , I didn't mean to be. You would always say " wait till you grow up and become a mother" then you will see, and I did see when I had my kids, and mom you were right it wasn't easy, and it still is not easy. Speaking of your grandkids, they cherish you to this day!, they have not forgotten you, and they always talk about what you have taught them, and what they learned from you, see mom they were listening to you, probably better than they did me. You held our family tighter mom, you were there for everyone. Mom you were the quiet one, the strong one, nobody really saw that, but I did. When dad died, I don't know how you kept it all tighter, but you did.

Then you started to get sick mom, and me and my brother didn't know what to do, but we did do the best we could have mom. I really did try to make you comfortable as possible when you came to live with me and Mike and Brian. I think you lost the will to live when dad died, and you knew you were not going to get any better, we all tried to be there for you and help you, but mom I know what you did.... I know why you did it, because you didn't want to suffer a long painful death, and I will admit I was really mad for a long time... but I know I was wrong. You needed to do what you had to do, but darn it I was lost without you and I still am. I miss the old days, when before you got sick, I'd call you everyday on the phone, or you would call me, we would talk about everything under the sun. I really wish it could be like that again, I really miss all your good sensible advice, I wish I had listened better to you. I miss coming over to visit you. What can I say about that, well they were some great mother and daughter times, I wish I had more of that with my daughter, but she is her own self as we know.

I hope I spent enough time with you mom, I don't want you to think when I got busy a lot of times that I forgot you, because I didn't. There is a lot more I'd like to say to you mom, but I think I will save it for later when I talk to you before I go to sleep.
I just wanted you to know how much I miss you and I love you, also thank you for being a wonderful grandmother to my children. I wish you got to meet my grandkids, because they are my special babies. Oh and by the way I'm going to be a grandmother again.

Happy Mother's Day Mommy :) ( Hugs )