Anxiety Magnified

A vicious cycle is repeating;
Fear has set its course;
Holding me...not letting go;
My hopes and dreams are gone;
My confidence is dead;
I need to get away;
But it is holding me...not letting go;
I am at a crossroads;
But the lights are all red;
Keeping me from where I need to go;
Keeping me in my own way;
I want to go outside;
And I know that I should go;
But my body won't move;
My mind screams, "No!"
I cannot fight it anymore;
It is holding me...not letting go;
I self-destruct as I retreat;
I cannot calm down;
I feel sick to my stomach;
I am sweating and shaking;
I feel so defeated;
O God, please help me;
Ease my worried mind, so troubled;
I am so desperate;
The beast has broken its chains;
It is holding me...not letting go;
It is too powerful for me;
Perhaps you are oblivious;
That your child is dying inside;
As the darkness slyly moves in;
To claim her for its own;
It is holding me...Not letting me go