Appreciate

Your life started inside me.
A gift from God you were.
The closest we would ever be
The bond of a mother and child.

Through birth I felt the pain
Your entance into this world.
A moment for we two to meet
To hold you in my arms.

The dreams and goals I planned for you
The test of parent hood.
Those happy and embarrassing times
We both would have to endure.

We always tried to communicate.
To bargain, to understand
Debates deciding what was right
Love and try again

You hurt one time I would hurt twice
the pain a mother feels.
It's tough in life to be a child
and grow up through the years.

Your are now grown
I miss you much
I thought I did so well
To bring you up happy
with decisions you made well

Our busy lives make time so hard
to see each other now.
One wish is just to be with you
from time each once in awhile.

I always felt we had this bond
One thing we'd never lose
but words can take it all away
an instant before you choose.

I ask for Christmas, holidays
but others have it first.
To hear it is too far away
or you're too busy just hurts.

I know you both have families now
but I am family too.
The one that began it all
The one that carried through

The time, hard work, and worried times
were done from just pure love
because you were a part of me
to carry ever on.

I'll soon be gone
Will you then care.
By then it will be late.
For times have passed and can't come back
What's missed can't be replaced.

For reasons I can't understand
We've sadly grown apart.
The pain will always be there
The aching in my heart.

I thought I did my best
somehow it seemed so right
but bonds are for a family
Somewhere we had that loss