Bad Days, Stupid People

I am a stupid moron. I think the title of this article already describes that, but I am a stupid moron. I know that I probably sunk to a new low writing about this, but I feel anyone interested should read this. It would probably make me feel better. It won't make up for all of the stupid things I've done, but it makes me feel better I will cash in writing about this. Still, it won't change the fact that I am a stupid moron.

There are many reasons. I could write an autobiography just on all of the stupid things I have done. Lately, the things I have done that were stupid were even dumber than some stupid things I've done in the past. For instance, I was only able to achieve a "C" grade in a subject I did very well in. I also broke many things recently. I had a MP3 player break and I had a laptop break because of stupid decisions I made. I am always wrong in everything I say online with the online political groups I am on. I am labeled as many names of the worst insults such as my facial appearance and my stupidity.

I admit that I probably am the scum of the earth, which is why I am sitting here without a girlfriend writing this article criticizing myself on my faults. Still, who breaks their MP3 player because they took it with them into the shower? Who bangs on their built in laptop mouse because they were pissed off? Who breaks their keyboard because they clean the keyboard incorrectly? Who breaks their burner because they don't know how to use it? Who does any of these things? A moron does, which is why I am just that.

People do stuff all the time that weren't the wisest of choices. All of those mistakes and wrong choices people make about things don't begin to compare with mine. I feel that the choices I made were the dumbest anyone could do. Sure, it might not seem too bad to you, but be in my shoes. I am the one who has my family turned against me because of these things I done. I am the disgrace to my family because of the rage, anger, and stupidity I shown in my disgracefully poor judgment.

Just take my family and me. I go to college currently at a state school in Pennsylvania and my brother and sister attend high school in a small town near the Ohio border. If you look at my grades I receive, I receive usually "B" and "C" grades. My brother and sister in the meantime are brilliant. They receive all "A" grades in school. It is me that seems to struggle with everything.

So now, take those grades and be in my parents' shoes. If you go in both of their shoes, you would probably make me to be the disgrace of the family. That would be more than fair for what I describe myself. I work as hard as my brother and sister do and manage worse grades than they do. That fact only has one explanation to it. It means that I am a stupid moron who probably is a good for nothing. I look at myself and I see nothing. I see a man in my future that will look back and see that they have amounted to nothing. I will see a man who never found anyone who loved them, never found happiness, never became prosperous, and probably would have had a failed journalism career. As I think about the future, I see an old man sitting alone with everyone trying to stay well away from him. The old man will be crying, knowing the failure he would have become.

That old man would be me. Through my life, I have seen nothing but failure. I've made mistake after mistake without any light to fix them. The only thing these mistakes make me do is lose confidence in myself and show what a stupid moron I am. These mistakes I make aren't mistakes I learn from. These mistakes instead are the scars that are left in my body, in my heart, and in my soul that are eternal.

All of the stuff I've done. All of the grades I barely can achieve through hard work. All of the things I broke due to my stupidity. All of the mistakes I have made seem to be more costly than the mistakes any of the people I know have made. I just don't understand sometimes why things are the way they are. I am not talking about the rich, the poor, the sick, and the well. I wonder about them too because the stories I have seen there touch my heart. Still, the stuff I have done just seems to be much worse than the stuff anyone else does.

I am sorry that I have vented on my life and how it stinks. It was just something I wanted to get off my chest and into the article. I hope that all of you would read it and at least find some pain in it. I know I have made the mistakes and am the worthless person I am, but it always helps to know people read this. I know this probably doesn't mean anything to any of you and it shouldn't either. Still a lot of people out there probably feel the same as me (even though they shouldn't) and this article is a tribute to the dumbest man in the world. That dumb and stupid person is me.