Battle with Addiction.

I sit and wonder what it would have been like had I of never left you.

Would you have rotted my mind and sent me to jail.

Could I of stayed the way I was without all the pain.

I reach for you daily and you are not there,

I wish you were closer

things seemed so much better when I was with you

even though you took every last drop of my soul.

Not a day goes by that I dont think of you

what you gave me,

what you took from me was worse in the end

I guess things worked out the way they were supposed to

because addiction was not my friend.

Things were supposed to be so different you were supposed to be so glamourous like gold

but at the end of the day you were like pyrite and I was a fool.

I lost years of my life because of you but still I want you each day

it takes all I have within me to keep you away

this battle within me I feel I will never win

and I will now say so long to what I thought was my friend.