Be with Me

I feel the onslaught of betrayal

Peering through the veil.

I sense danger and evil all around

I feel alone

And unprotected

Take it to the Lord

Heal my abandonment lord

The shame of it.

The things that I said to myself

About my self

Because she abandoned me.

Is is that she couldn't

or

wouldn't be there for me.

either way it felt like

death..

And the hurt.

The hurt.

It just hurt so bad

The mourning

And the grief

That I carried around

Like my lunch pail

And backpack

Too young to understand

The depth of my pain

or From whence it came.

But I blamed myself.

I just need to know

That it wasn't my fault.

And so I weep

I wish that somebody could

Have explained to me at 7

That I could call out on the name of Jesus

And he would mother me.

I weep

And I meet the sadness

That the other spirit was trying to cover up.

The sadness is actually bearable

No longer have to meet men that leave

cuz I am facing the reason

I attract abandoning spirits.

Then I tell Jesus

I feel so sad

So sad

Very sad

So sad and bad about yesteryear

Take the spirit out

Take it out of my mind

My will

My emotions

I don't want to recreate it

Abandonment again.

I just want to finally deal with

it

I want to heal

Heal and forgive.

Now I'm ready for him, and

Others who can stay

And be

Be with me.

Finally.