Blink........

If you find this journal, if it's being read, then I'm no longer here. The fact that I am no longer here will serve as proof that I didn't cheat the plan. That I didn't spare anyone. That It was a total act of randomness. I like all of you had a 50/50 shot.

I've looked at this from every angle. I have given it as much thought as one can, given such a short period of time to decide.

I'm sure that things are going to be real fucked up for a while. Dramatic change has alway led to chaos. In time though, I'm sure that things will settle down. Maybe those of you who are left, will eventually figure out that this was something that had to be done. It was a matter of time anyway. Better that half of us be removed then the entire planet's eventual strangulation.

All roads will eventually lead to me. To what I have done here. That is just fine with me. I left the trail of breadcrumbs for a reason. I do not desire the fame it will bring. I just want the real truth to be known. Not all the Political, and Religious bullshit that I know will come out of this. I want it known that I did this for my own reasons. For the well being of the world. I guess I did it all for you. It wasn't God, or Allah or Buddah. It wasn't science, or governmental.

I wonder how the rest of you will look upon me? The Psychopath? The Savior? A little of both? I feel that eventually, everyone will realize that this had to be done. I guess everyone would like an explanation of how something like this could be possible. How in the hell did I pull off the greatest disappearing act in the history of the universe? Well that is why I am writing this. Not only to give you understanding of the why I did it, but also of the how I did it.

Of course a true magician can never give away his secret's. Not to mention the last thing I want is someone else to figure it out. It can't be done again anyway. Not until she is ready for it at least. Mother Nature has a way of evening things out.

Magic is my life, always has been. Since I was a kid watching, David Copperfield make the space shuttle disapear, to the card trick's my dad used to pull on us. I knew that I was to be a magician. The calling came early and I dedicated my life to the single focus of my craft. I knew in my gut that there was magic beyond the slieght of hand and diversion tricks that we all use to entertain you. Real Magic, and not the bullshit witchraft and voodo type of stuff that a lot of people beleive in.

True magic is all around us, I know this sounds cliche', but it's true. It is an energy that very few have ever been able to tap into. I could only feel it at first. A dull vibration that increased with time. I moved a pencil once with it when I was 12. It was an accident at first. It took a long time to figure out how to do it again.Once I mastered the movement of small items I knew that I could make a real, living with magic.

Most of you by now have either seen or heard of the lifting of the trucks, the leveling of the building in Chicago with the shockwaves I made. The Disapearances of all the thing's I have done for crowds and for money since I was 18. What all of you do not realize is that these were not parlor tricks. There was no trick photography involved. No slieght of hand no diversion. When I did those things I did them for real. When those things disappeared, they simply ceased to exist. I do not know where they went or if they went anywhere. I just know that they are gone and I am the reason. That is why I never did a disappearance that invloved living things. When I gave interviews regarding that, I was telling the truth. When I said; "that I feared what would happen to living things". I was telling you all that I could not bring things back. That once it is done, it cannot be undone.

I sent a homeless man away last year. I needed to see if I could bring him back, and where he went if I did bring him back. I tried for weeks to bring him back. I couldn't.
He was the first. I do not know his name.
Color. That is what I see. That is how the energy presents itself to me. It looks a lot like the northern lights. Constanly moving, constantly changing. It is not all pretty though. Some of it is very ugly. The ugly colors are growing more everyday. That is how I figured this out.
Our world is sick, the planet is dying. We are the disease. It is the human races fault. Something had to be done.

I have been to the farthest corners of the globe. I do not need to drive or fly. I just want to be there and I am. It's not that I disapear, and then reappear, I cant get the things back I send away remember. I am not sure as I have never tried myself to disapear, but I am pretty sure I would go away forever also. In my travels I have found that this sickness is spreading. It is everywhere now. Pollution, hate, violence. It all contributes to the disease. There's just too many people here. The world can't heal itself fast enough anymore. It can heal itself though. I have seen proof of that.

So tonight I will do what I have been steeling myself to do for the last two years. Tonight I will save this planet from it's illness. From US. I know it will work. I have tried it already. Not on this scale but I can do it. To be totally fair I have left noone out of harms way. I will simply take half. I am included in the half. It is totally random. Noone is safe, noone is not. Consider this Mother Natures way of shaking off the fleas that are killing her. It's Mother Nature who has given me this gift. It is her energy I see and feel. I know why she has given me the power.

It's time now. It will only take a blink of my eyes to make half of the population of the world cease to be. I wish I could have given us time to say goodbye, to put our houses in order so to speak. My illness doesn't allow me time. I must do this now while I still have the strength. Regardless of whether or not I go away tonight, I will be dead soon anyhow. Cancer. It's eating me alive. I think this was Her way of showing me how much she is hurting. I can't live with this pain. Neither can she.

Everything is going to be better. Someday this will have to be done again. Our raping of this planet will never stop. Eventually she will be sick again. I have a feeling that I will be replaced when the time comes. If you look back through the history of this planet. She alway's has a way of evening things out. Mother Nature is funny that way.
Blink.........................................................................................................................................................................