Blog the First

So. I'm going to do this slowly. Feel my way through. These won't be like my other blogs; "what do you like about writing, etc". Very personal. Maybe too personal for some. You'll learn a lot about me and my family and my faith. Maybe too much. But I want to open up, and lately I've sensed friends out there who want ME to open up. So here it is. And, I won't always tag a video on. Only when it seems appropriate.

I won't blog again until next week. It'd be easy to blog every day right now; school's out. BUT, I want to lay down a routine that will carry me when school is back in session, a once or twice a week deal. The candle that burns half as bright, and all that.

To begin with. I am a Christian. A man of faith (though poor and inconsistent at times). I believe in the unseen. I have to. I'm wired that way. Everything has a reason. A purpose. Meaning. I do have certain doctrinal beliefs that I don't feel the need to trot out here. It's enough to know that I believe in God, that Christ was real and died on the cross for us, and there is a Plan.

I'm not a "Christian Horror Writer", though, nor do I write "Christian Horror". I hate labels. Plus, I believe Art works best through subtleties and indirect themes with broad applications. Does this mean I'm presumptuous and pretentious enough to call myself an artist? You bet.

But if there's one thing I can't stand is superiority. Arrogance. Self-righteousness. You'll find none of that here. I believe in Purpose and Destiny, and What Comes After. I have very defined feelings about this that I'm glad to share in a conversation. But I will not proselytize, and I will not apologize for that. So deal with it.

Like the stories I've sold about my faith, my blogs will be about God's interaction with OUR lives - my family's life. I make no effort to apply it to anyone else. I do not feel smug or "special because of my faith". I'm no better than you. Most the time, I feel lost and broken.

In closing, I'm pretty laid back and relaxed, go with the flow, unstressed. This isn't a facade. It's truth. But on the inside, I'm screaming.

Almost every day. This is truth, too.