Born with a Gift Some People Call a Curse

I was born with a gift that some call a curse, and quite frankly at times, I have thought it to be a curse as well. However the older I get the more I realize this is with me forever and it will not simply go away but it does the opposite, it grows stronger year by year.

These psychic feelings gets stronger as I age, and now as I slowly begin into my early forties I realize that I do have a duty more then ever to help those who desire to help. Some people may wonder how it is to grow up to be psychic, and it is not as easy or fun as some would think it to be.

It is awful, as I would see things before they happened yet when I would tell others before hand was going to happen they would not believe me. I had many dreams that would come true when I was a child it was dreadful.

I have smelt odors and aromas that no one else smelled. Yes, I have missed flights because I was afraid to get on them; I have canceled out on other trips by automobile solely in my intuition. If there is a strong strange feeling associated with it I simply do not do it.

I have felt at times that I have had to distance my self from others because I felt the negative energy coming from them. I have also lost regular jobs because of my true nature.

I believe my sense of intuition is delicate and that allows me to see, hear and feel things that others do not. I am not crazy though I once believed I was. After all who would not think so if they were in my shoes?

I was raised in a home where our parents did not make us go to church; we were free to choose what was best for us. Now that I am older and wiser, my family does acknowledge my unique gift as one which is god given. They believe me when I tell them of my intuitions and dreams.

People have called a liar, a cheat, and worse. I have lost friends and even a freelance job because of my abilities. I also freelance web design and one client followed a link to my one of my psychic related auctions on eBay and read my about me page out there. This clearly states, I am a minister, and that I do tarot card readings.

That client told me she would pay me for work that which was already done, but I should not submit anything else. She would not need my services any longer because she was a God fearing Catholic. I was shocked, but I knew it was her choice. It did not matter to me that she was a Catholic so why should it matter to her if I was a Gnostic Christian.

Fear is what drove her to her decision and that is understandable as we all fear things that are new or different then what we know. Once we get out of out own personal comfort zone it is hard to get comfortable with something new.

When people hear, minister and tarot cards in the same breath they tend to see dark images of animal sacrifice, speaking in tongues, and evil doings. I do not treat any animals badly, I do not speak in tongues, and very few people have ever seen me angry but certainly, I have never been so angry to be evil.

I could pass you on the street and I would look like ever one else, there is nothing scary about me. I am simply me and that is how I am. I am a five-foot blonde woman, who does not look out of the ordinary.

I do not do spells, worship the devil, or howl at the moon. I simply read tarot cards and pray to God differently then you do.

I believe God is the same for everyone. Sure, some of us pray differently but it all goes to one Supreme Being and that is God. We all read the same holy book, but we just read it differently.

I believe God is everywhere and I believe I do not have to go into a building with lots of witnesses just to talk to him. I believe that getting into heaven requires me to treat others, as I would like them to treat me. I believe God loves everyone the same, he sees no differences in us.

Religious differences is what began America back in the day, I do not shun anyone in this world for their religious beliefs for to do that would be against God's idea of us. I think we should celebrate our differences and not put others down simply because we are different. We are all after all individuals and if we were the same, this world would be a boring one.