Breathing

the moonlight is beautiful,
but my heart is broken,
thank you God... Im alive,
but my soul is frozen,
I want to be numb,
hide away in a place,
that noone will find me,
where memories erase,

and its all because of you....

the stars are amazing,
a blanket of shimmer,
but explain to me please,
what i lack.. thats in her?
is it her gorgeous hair,
or perfect smile,
should i change to fit,
what you see as style,
Im broken and dying,
inside un-healed,
this cant be what you had,
that you wanted to reveal,

I am lost...and its all because of you

I thought you were perfect,
I guess I couldnt know,
that not 2 years down the road,
you would want so bad to go,
dreaming of places,
to escape all the sad,
and all I can find,
is there's just too much bad,

when im with you....

you pick me up, then drop me,
whats a girl to do,
except sit here writing poems,
about me and you

and how long will it take for you to notice im gone?
how long until we reach the end, of the saddest song?
when will the waiting in agony rest?
what will i do when im alone in my bed,

when im without you

when will my heart find the strength to move on,
it would be great to not have to bleed,
when will the sad poems end, and the happy take place,
how much will it take for me to be able to breathe?