Broken Inside and Out

before, I felt broken outside
a pain that will never subside
my disability has no cure
the struggles I must endure
I told her I had nothing left to take
that was a grave mistake
she knew everything, my loneliness
she accepted my weaknesses
all she brought me was stress
her whereabouts just a guess

now, I feel broken inside
emotions escaped that I tried to hide
I trusted her and she let me down
she made me feel like a clown
like no other, our meeting I lament
she said she was different
she got that right, in a bad way
I felt like all she did was play
with my mind and my heart
I feel completely torn apart
she meant the world to me
she must be too blind to see
when I saw dark, she became my future
now it's all destroyed and can't be sutured
she brought me joy I never felt before
then took it away, leaving me empty to the core
she was a coward not to tell me the truth
that is rude and uncouth
she kept me in the dark
like an idiot, a mark
I was there for her, like no one else
she just ran from me on impulse
I loved her unconditionally
she returned it unilaterally

she knows what she has done
does she think she has won?
I won't do anything in anger
I will not be an indulger
that is what she expects
to say nasty things and disrespect
I will prove her wrong
I will keep it to myself and be strong
but I'm so angry that I just want to shout
I'm broken inside and out!