Change Your Life with Meditation

Since I have found the wonders of meditation, I have lost 64 lbs through diet and exercise, learned to play the clarinet a little and have decided I can handle going back to school to become a speech therapist for children. I took an emotional IQ test and it was pretty easy to get the right answers. I have stopped being so dependant on others opinions of me when it doesn't matter because I haven't really done anything to hurt anyone.

I can't live my life in fear of what may happen; I can only love others and have faith that God will see my attempts to do the right thing and bless me. While I was told I would never be able to do anything, I find I can work with children quite well. I don't want to be a problem to people and try not to gossip or hurt people with my words which seems to be a big thing with some people. I used to go to a political club, but I feel that I don't quite fit in. And have decided to not go anymore. While I vowed to wait till marriage and am conservative in some respects, I find that although some think I'm very beautiful, I haven't had any luck with men.

I have great friendships with certain men, and am confused by many, and recently an elderly gentleman wanted to marry me after talking to me for half an hour. How bizarre. I have trouble dealing with men because of past hurts. But thanks to meditation it just doesn't bother me as much any more. Even though when I was little and I was emotionally upset my mother said I could always get married. And that didn't help at all.

So now that I'm nearing an age where if I want to have children I should do it soon, I find it very difficult to meet someone who has the same desire as me to have a child and want me as well. I know of one man who wants a big family and with my bad nerves I just can't see myself with a large brood. But we are friends and it will have to stay that way.

It seems odd that just as I start feeling better and looking better, men seem to try to get with me even though I've given up on having a meaningful relationship. It seems like this whole society has gone nuts and I am along for the ride. I don't want to complain about men or anything because some have them have been really nice to me as a friend. And I'm not planning on breaking a vow to wait till marriage. But my victories have been hard won. It was scary to cut back so much on sugar and other bad for you treats. It was scary to try eating beans and rice and vegetables even though now I love it. It was scary having a man run off the treadmill next to me. But I haven't been grabbed at in the last year and I am very grateful for that.

And my family has been a great source of joy for me even though I consider myself a Christian and they don't really believe in Jesus. I just have to wonder if Christ really wants to bless me since I have such little faith. Not that anyone really has a lot of faith or else there wouldn't have been all these horrible holy wars. People would be able to solve their problems at a meeting. But it is human nature to want to destroy. The crowd brings people to do horrible things. So many people turn to drugs to feel good when meditation, diet and exercise can do so much more for you.

If I could offer one bit of advice to others is that you need a balanced life. If you find yourself blaming others and being angry all the time, maybe its time to take a deep breath and learn to relax and just be still. I know Jesus wants us to be slow to anger. And it really is much healthier for you.