Contradicting Myself

I tell myself I am evil,
No one loves me or cares,
I say that I am not capable,
Not able to be a success.

I say I am unlovable,
I hate what I see inside,
What happened to me is my fault,
I am to blame for it all.

Inside I feel dark and evil,
My success in life is a lie,
Anyone who knows the truth,
Will leave me and hate me for it.

I say all of this to myself,
Reminding me every day,
That I am unworthy of anything,
Destined to be alone forever.

I am trying to contradict myself,
To alter the way I see me,
To learn to love myself,
For what I am inside.

The person others see is real,
The lie is in my head alone,
I am capable, lovable, and good,
People like me for what they see inside.

This is hard for me to do,
I fight this change to fiercely,
But I have the will and desire,
The be the man I want to be.