Cutting a Poem by My Grandaughter

This was written by my 16 yr old grandaughter. She and her older sisters, have been through many traumatic experiences. Cutting is a serious real problem among adults teenagers and even adolecesents. It is a tool they use to cover up the emotional pain they feel. Just as drug addicts use drugs, alcoholics use alcohol and bulimics and anorexics treat food, cutters cut to relieve stressors. I pray one day through education, empathy, compassion and prayers, all these addictions will someday become extinct.

Sam was diagnosed with PTSD at age 7. She has been fighting to survive emotionally and physically. She has not cut for a while now, Thank God, but she called me today and read me her poem. I asked if I could publish it. This is copied and pasted exactly as she wrote it.

CUTTING

I love the way it makes me feel

I love the way it gets rid of the pain

It makes me feel so good

when I'm going completely insane

I hate the way it's so addicting

I hate the way my family crys

I hate the way it takes control me

It's as if my hands are tied

I love the way It's undescribable

I love the way it takes my hurt

In a moment it can heal the worst

Including a broken heart

I hate that I can not stop

I hate the way I get a headache

I hate the way I get locked up

I hate the way It makes my heart ache

I love the way that I get away

even for a second I am on my own

I love the way I know it's there

I know I truely have a home

I hate the way it confuses me

I know that the blade is a true friend

I hate the way it stabs you in the heart

I hate the way ppl think ut's a trend

I love the fact it's my own

noone can take it from me

I hate the way people judge

I just wish everyone could see

What it does for me hurts

What it does for my heals

What it does for me is wondrful

The wounds will always seel

It's wierd when I do it

It gets me into trouble

but makes everything better

Mainly when my anger starts to bubble

I need to quit I know that

I need a new way to cope

So I ask that all of you

Will give me your pray and hope

I can do it I know I'm strong

I mainly need my sister

Amy I love you so and always will

You are my not only best friend and my sister