Days of My Life

Silently going through life alone
Unable to find true happiness
Nobody in my life to comfort me
Darkened by the agony in my heart
Abstained from loving
You'll never understand.

More than enough happens to me
Only living through it is hard
Never expressing happiness or joy
Dying inside from my pain and suffering
Allowing anyone to hurt me
You'll never understand.

Tossing and turning in my sleep
Uniting with dreams I don't want to keep
Every night I lie down and cry
Swallowing the pain in my heart
Drowning in a lake of tears
Accompanied by fear and sorrow
You'll never understand.

Waiting for someone to come for me
Everyday I start wondering or
Downing myself all the time
Never feeling loved by anyone
Each moment hoping for the day
Someone will say "I Love You"
Deep inside I know one day it will happen
A day that seems so far away
You'll never understand.

Trying to find my true love
Hating the fact I cannot
Unable to voice my thoughts
Remote from what the world has to say
Silenced by my crying heart
Directing me to a lonely life
And abused by an empty heart
You'll never understand.

Frightened by the way I feel
Rejected from the world of happiness
Insensitive to everything else around me
Dealing with the hurt brought to me
Allowing myself to dwell in it
You'll never understand.

Sometimes I wish it was all a dream
A dream that I could put away
Though, I know it's as real as my words
Unseen like the thoughts in my mind
Reaching with outstretched arms
Desiring to be held by someone
Adapting, however, to a life of loneliness
You'll never understand, the days of my life.