Dealing with a Lost Loved One

The definition of "sister" is a female offspring in relation to you because of your parents. However, to me a sister is a girl whom you truly care for and love and you both do not need to be related to each other. You love her because she has stood by you through your tough times and has always supported you no matter what. You two share a special bond, a never-ending friendship. She is a part of you as you are a part of her, and she will always be there for you because she knows you will forever be by her. Yet, what happens when that extraordinary part of you is ripped away in an instant? An instant that was too rapid for you to respond too with no absolute power of what is happening. The only reasonable thing to do at this time is to blame yourself because there is no good enough clarification that someone else can present you with. Your world slips off tilt, it spins out of the colossal orbit, into a place far among the luminous stars. Far away from where your previous home was located, yet you don't mind because at least for now you feel closer to where you know she has gone. Heaven.

I felt lost with out her, I missed her every single passing day. I couldn't sleep with the thought deep inside my brain that she was not next to me on my bed loudly snoring. I repeatedly asked myself, "Why bother trying to achieve happiness in this awful place called a life, when everything you have ever worked for can vanish in a couple of tiny insignificant seconds?" I wept since the light shone on the horizon until the last star in the sky dimmed out. I wanted her to be there reassuring me, "It is just a phase, it will pass, but for now just stay strong." The horrible thing was it was not just a phase, nothing would ever be the same, and she would never come back to this universe and stay by my side for eternity. We both had so many promises that we wanted to embrace together and so many dreams that would never be fulfilled. Time has passed and no, I have not been able to move on about our tragic loss. The only difference is that now I do not blame myself for what happened and I now know she is in a better place looking down upon me, guiding me in the correct path and I am able to acknowledge that.