Defining Self II

At age 12 or 13 I was pretty popular within my own little family, I think because I was the oldest, and my cousins kind of followed me.

In high school I was not the most popular, but I was known enough, and had a handful of friends in which I hung out with every day. I've never been a follower, but I would not call myself a leader either.

I have always had my own style, and walk to the beat of my own drum.

I remember riding in the car with my father, and having this blank stare until he'd ask, what I was thinking about. "Nothing" I'd say, but honestly I don't think I was thinking of anything in particular, just kind of taking in my surroundings, as though it were going to be my last look, and memory.

As a teen mom, I thought that I needed to figure things out a bit more quickly than others.

I got married right before my 20th birthday may also have pushed this right along.

I honestly believe that it was not until I converted to Islam about six years ago, that I said to myself, "who am I truly, and how is it that I want people to remember me when I am gone".

I felt that being Muslim may clash with who I thought my current self to be. I like music, I like to help others, I have a few friends, but a very small group, and most are family. I love art, and things that are creative, and have an emotional affect on me.

I had been homeschooling for about five years, and was aware of the different learning styles. But it was in that year that I began to look closer into intelligence, and motivation. Enrollment as a business student, which required a philosophy course really sparked my interests'. That year I learned that I possibly had a high level of Introspective intelligence, and was slightly introverted. I had no problem socializing with others, but it was not the height of my existences, or a craving within my every being.

It's been almost three years later, why it never caught my eye before I don't know. I have learned about existential intelligence, which led me to learn more about introspective intelligence. I'm not sure if it was time that I needed, but today I finally have come to learn my true self.

I am an introspective individual, which enjoys time alone to read, and reflect on my inner self, and purpose, and in order to learn things and fully grasp them at their fullest potential I must reflect deeply about them, and how these things are relative to my personal emotional experiences and connections. I enjoy helping others to discover their fullest potential as well, by assisting them with goal setting and seeking to know their inner self as well.

How do these affect my feelings and emotions? Even as far as being an existential, visual learner, when it comes down to designing a web page, it comes down to how does that image make me feel when I look at , what does it make me think of, how does its colors affect my mood.

I am seeking understanding of myself, and my purpose and how I fit in to this great big puzzle called life. I'm not sure if it happened over time, or if it had always been there.

So, what about you?

Thinking back to your past, your preferences when it comes to the way in which you spend your time. Your social and spiritual life, the way you look at the world, and learn new things.

Your natural intelligence ties very closely with your learning style as well, and I believe that the more you know about yourself, the more successful you will be in life. It has a large affect on your career choice, spouse, and the way in which you view life and then raise your own children.

So, who are you, and how is it that you want to be remembered when you are gone?