Dementia Another Day

Boy do I feel like crap . They tell me I have an infection in my bladder and bowels. All I know is I can't make it to the bathroom on my own. I can't have ice cream which of course is my favorite. I tried to get up and my knees and legs are so weak I slipped and fell. Now I have an alarm that I sit on. Apparently it is a weighted alarm so when I want to get up I will just have to lay something on it.

They yell at me like I am a child do they not have any respect for older people. I have been through a lot more in my lifetime then these young kids. I have raised 6 of my own I have dealt with alot in my years and now I am treated like a child. I just don't even care anymore. Where are my kids? I need them now. A lady comes in my room to give me her little speech every day. She drives me crazy. Wants me to go to a show or something like it and doesn't she know that I need to have my family go with me. Will she ever give up.

Seems to me I have been napping a lot lately. I am so weak from my infections. I just want to get back to normal. My daughter asks me to make a deal with her (oh no here we go again) she wants me to agree to go to activities so that I do not sit alone all day. I of course agree. But we all know that I am not really going to do it.

My sons don't seem to come see me very often. They both have their own business but I would still like to see them. My daughter-in-law hates me so I know she will not come. BooHoo! like I care. Here comes my granddaughter maybe I can talk her into sneaking me some ice-cream. Of course she does. Then we share it and then I give her a lecture on how to dress and act. She is a teenager and should be aware of these things. Now I think I will lay down for awhile and take a nap before dinner.

I wake to the phone ringing and it is my daughter calling me at 3 in the morning. I ask her where she is , she says that she is on her way home. I get really nervous and nauseated thinking that she is out at 3 in the morning. She says it is 3 in the afternoon. But why would I just be waking up. She laughs at me this hurts my feelings that I cannot comprehend the time and day. I am not crazy.

I am not crazy I have Alzheimer's.