Diary of a Mad Man: Looking at Life From the Perspective of a Bipolar

Why indifference? I guess there is somewhat of a calm that comes with being indifferent. Almost a peace. Not giving up, just not caring. "Its out of my control, Why worry?" Isn't that what most religions teach? "Let go, let God". Uh oh, I said the "G" word. Not the "g" word but the "G" word. I believe in God. The loving God, then the mysterious God and then the God that I carry around in the back of my mind like carrying a coin in your pocket. Not that I have control over God or that he is small but maybe that we are so out of touch with each other that the only interaction is an occational touch to make sure he is still there. Or to let him know I am still here.

Like a ping in the abyss. If I get a reply then I dont fret. If I dont get a reply I dont fret much. I cant really change things by worrying. Ah but then again you cant change things by being indifferent.

I digress. Verb 1. digress - lose clarity or turn aside especially from the main subject of attention or course of argument in writing, thinking, or speaking; "She always digresses when telling a story"; "her mind wanders"; "Don't digress when you give a lecture"