Doffin

Who am I here?
Who am I now?
I dropped all the pain and embrace the now.
It is nature that brought it all forth.
It is nature that shows me my worth.
I do know God is working on me.
I know he is asking me:
"Dear, why can't you see?"
For to be in nature I know what to do.
But I go back to my husband and forget all I ensue.
For I grasp the light that burns inside and away.
To the divine law I must abide.
Oh dear God when you're full in my heart all my troubles are cast away.
I am ready for the new start.
But what do I do when I must see Him or he?
Be victim of the abuse of the:
'Oh, how he loves me?"
He yells and he tells me:
"Oh dear why can't you see?"
He is not God.
He says to me:
"You do not know yourself.
Just listen to me for I am the one who knows who you are."
I hate to say it:
"But I do hate him so."
Forgive me God.
But without him oh how much I'll grow!
I love me and to be all alone.
An apartment I'll find to call my own home.
I just need the money to make it all be.
Help me make money to set myself free.
I try to be open and accept his side.
But then I hate myself and there is a part of me died.
God, I do need the strength.
Help me let him go.
I've dealt with this too great a length.
I am dying and dying a little more each day.
To be with one who doesn't love me for me but only for the image he has.
Oh God.
I know His image is more than divine.
Oh dear God!
I need a new start.
God just does not like it.
Oh how he makes me feel so useless and worthless.
He who is God does not a such thing.
My husband hates me a great deal.
Oh God!
Oh dear God!
In nature I love.
I love to hear the birds.
The wind in the trees.
When I am in nature I even loved bees.
I love all the insects that fly in the air.
I love the wind that whispers and blows into my hair.
Oh how I hate to have to go home
At home when I am with him I feel so alone!
But when I am all alone in nature I feel alive.
Full.
All alone in nature .
No loneliness is about.
For I am filled with God and his beautiful trees.
I am filled with God and his miraculous bees.
Oh God!
Oh dear God!
Don't let me go home.
Oh God!
Oh dear God!
In nature I'll roam.