Don't Take Life for Granted

I don't really talk about it much these days. But when I was growing up, there was a heroin epidemic in my county. It was scary. All people ever talked about was drugs, sex and rock and roll. There was a recession and the media was driving people into a frenzy.

Instead of turning to heroin, I found a church. By this time. I was starving myself because I wanted to be a model and it affected me. It took me ten years to eat right for my situation, but now I feel much better. I thought there has to be more than being lonely, and so I tried making friends. And I got the nickname J-lo. Funny, you don't really need to be a rock star to feel famous.

I haven't really found a calling. But I like working at a Christian Daycare. My boss wanted me to become a director someday and I think I tested well on an IQ test. But I really just wanted to meet someone nice.

I know its really awkward sometimes being beautiful and having men come on too strong. But I really don't know what anyone expects of me. I'm not a mean person. And although I'm very pretty, people haven't always been very nice to me and I resent working in abusive situations.

I would be really good at sales if people weren't so mean to me. As it were you can't pay me enough to put up with abusive people anymore. I'd rather just call it what it is. Abuse. Drug abuse abuses the people around you. Its not cool and can wreck your health. I pity people who feel pressured to drink or do drugs or sleep around. I'm not into that kind of lifestyle. I find people enjoy my company, and some guys even want to be my friend. I just have dreams too.

And while I'm disabled and working despite it. I think it is important to remember how good life can be. When you see a child, or when you meet a nice friendly person, when you have a hobby that doesn't involve getting plastered. Being in a loving relationship is the best thing for your health.

But how many of us have dysfunctional relationships. Drugs and mental problems are bad for relationships. So is demanding too much and being unhappy all the time. Some people are dysfunctional. Some people aren't. Its all a matter of finding someone who makes you want to be a better person.