Embracing a Restless Peace
Day 103 - a Year with God
Growing up in turmoil, even though it was mostly internal, and then continuing the turmoil through a series of bad relationships has created an upside down sense that something has to constantly be causing conflict or drama. A day void of drama has begun to feel foreign to me.
So, today I am embracing a restless peace because while I enjoy the peacefulness, there is an urge to make something happen. There is that niggling little feeling that something somewhere must be wrong; I just haven't found it yet.
As I learn to bring more harmony into my life by developing those Christian qualities associated with love, respect and acceptance; I realize that my "normal" has been anything but normal for a long time. So, I am finding a new normal that is more acceptable and agreeable to all concerned.
When my husband of ten years looked at me today and says he has no idea what my new "look" means; that is a good sign. For years he has been able to read the disappointment, judgment and anger on my face. Nothing was ever completely right and I was never completely happy about anything. I was preprogrammed to complain and nag about everything.
What a blessing it has been to me to not feel the weight of having to constantly be watching out for something or someone who has wronged me. What a blessing for my husband to finally be able to come home from work every day without wondering what I am going to complain about today. He doesn't have to wonder what he has done wrong.
So, for now I will gratefully accept the peace no matter how strange it feels and will continue to seek it and promote it through my love and respect for others.
"The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake."
Psalm 23:1-3
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Day 102 - I Thought I Was Wrong Once; But I Was Mistaken
Published by Marilyn Quinn
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