Family Secrets and What Others Think

I write down my thoughts. I enjoy it. Right now I'm bored so I write. I write on paper first because my ideas flow better that way. I don't know why, but they just do. It's how I write scripts, blogs, grocery lists, and random thoughts. Writing gives me a perspective. My head stays clear. I reduce stress through the exercise of expressing thought. If I use bad language it is only because that is what I am doing at that time to express how I feel. They are words, which at one time were commonly used. Modern society has turned them taboo. If you don't believe it, educate yourself about the history of curse words. That being said, I think that a few people, the ones who I mentioned earlier, have read and found a new way to judge me. I suppose it makes them feel better about themselves.

I was told I should watch my mouth. I think that these people have forgotten I'm not a spoiled rebellious teen, living in my parents' house, living off their money. I'm in my place, using my electricity, eating my food, and logging onto my internet. I've paid for all of it with my job. Don't tell me to watch my mouth.

I'm writing this as an exercise. It doesn't work if I worry about whose fragile soul I will shatter. I do respect people, which is why if I know they don't share my sense of humor and views, I don't say certain things around them in person. You choose whether or not to log on here and read this. I put the choice in your hands. I'm not trying to shock and bother, I'm just free writing.

When you spend your time worrying about what others will think of you, you waste your time. If I've learned anything over the past two days, it's that no matter what your intentions are, when you are honest, when you expose the darkness inside of you that everyone has, you become a target for the righteous. They pick up their stones so to speak. People assume they know you. They twist your words. I've written clearly, that which I believe, however, the ignorant will always choose ignorance, even if they are faced with the truth. They can't do what I'm doing. They allowed themselves to do some awful things. Things I've only eluded to in a sometimes humorous way. I write about things that plague our society. I also air out my own dirty laundry. I don't want the build up so that I have to live a lie, just so that some other jerks, who probably have just as many, if not more issues than me, can judge and look down their nose. It's easier to fake righteousness, being honest is just too much for some.

People like this, choose to lie and live in a world where they can cover up their sins. Family secrets are what they call them, and while I know it's something that many have done, it has been a huge hit here in the south. Give somebody a way they can do something awful and never have to face a consequence and they will jump at the chance. In short and in slang, these people suck.

They can't allow you to think differently. It scares them. It shakes them up and worries them. They make your business their business. Hypocrisy is defined as the practice of professing beliefs, feelings, or virtues that one does not hold or possess. It is also defined as falseness. I profess what I believe and because it bothers this person over here, all of the sudden I'm the evil person, although I never attacked them for their beliefs. I wouldn't do that. I think it's good for another person to have a view and values, even if they're not mine. It's good if you live them, not preach them to everyone around you and then do your own thing.

I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do, I do not do, but what I hate, I do. Paul said that. It means a lot to me. He was a free-writer. People now quote him more than Christ in church; however a closer reading will show you that he had a lot of issues with the sins of this world as well. He also had a problem with the religious. He shook them up which is why they had him arrested. I think everyone who is honest with themselves can relate. We all need encouragement, no matter what our spiritual beliefs are. We don't need the teachings of hypocrites though.

I may not understand what I do, and I don't always do the right thing, but when I mess up, you'll know. I don't share your views in every way. That doesn't mean I don't love you. It doesn't mean I can't get along with you. I don't harbor secrets. If I have wronged someone, I'll ask for forgiveness. I won't demand it. I'll ask and then let it be.