Feel like Giving Up

Stephanie Alford
So now someone says that I am fat and gross looking....if you are inquisitive, I'm sure that you can find the comment in one of my poems. Wow, that really took me by surprise, especially considering that I always thought wearing a size 4 or so was thought to be skinny. Apparently, this person seems to think that I am so bad that I am actually not a Domme; that I have to pay others. I just can't believe that people are so rude.....in all honesty, that picture was taken after my miscarriage, and I wasn't even fat then. I suppose some people are just jealous because in reality, they are probably way worse than I am. At least I don't troll around on here all day, trying to find something to say that would make someone feel bad. I, like so many others on here, am trying to make something of myself. And when I finish my doctorate from Harvard, I will have the last laugh. My only wish is that I would be able to see this "thing" in person and let them know just how I really feel....more than his feelings would be hurt, I assure you. I don't usually cuss, but he's a damn prick and he will get what he deserves. Poems shall be written about this, more than likely. And I highly doubt that they will be the nice kind, for I am in a very foul mood, but I shall not let it ruin my day; that's what this person wants, if I can even call him that. More like some type of android with total loss of any feelings whatsoever. Anyway, for those of you who are my friends, I apologize about the rant; it's definitely nothing that you did.

Published by Stephanie Alford

I've returned from my little emotional sabbatical. Much better now.  View profile

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  • Harold Sink5/14/2008

    I have learned more about you from this one article than I have in all the others combined. Looking at your picture, you certainly are not fat, and I am bowled over that you are attending Harvard. I am really impressed now. Blow off comments like you being fat. What the heck do they know. Personally, I could tell you weren't fat by your face in the picture on this profile. I'm a pretty good judge of that being an artist. You take care, and shoot for the moon. Hope all your dreams come true.

  • PenPress5/14/2008

    No, don't you ever give up ....................true beauty is within you.................and looking good is not the main thing.................you can be skinny as hell and still suffer from insecurity about your beauty..................what matters is how you feel about yourself.................so, don't let anybody's irresponsible comments affect you that way..............................

  • Christine Bruness5/13/2008

    Promise us that you will ignore this crap and focus on your amazing talent. I love you, too! Stay focused and stay well and strong...never allow anyone to rob you of your grace and peace. It is yours and yours alone...don't give it away to those spirit crushers!

  • Christine Bruness5/13/2008

    PS: I also wanted to tell you that you can choose to delete this person's comments, if you choose to do so.

  • Christine Bruness5/13/2008

    Steph -- I have been sick lately so I am not sure which writer (?) you are referring to; however, the best advice I could pass along to you is not to even indulge this person. Do not even dignify his/her comments with a response. You are here, as you say 'to better yourself', not to get down on a level that is beneath you.

    Any time we post something on the net, we have to understand that there are people out there who will be contrary to us--even downright mean-spirited and rude...just have faith in what you are doing and do not let the spirit crushers win, okay?

    (It could be something as simple as this person not believing in what you believe or practice and he/she decided to counter you with a blow below the belt to get a rise out of you. This person owns the problem--NOT YOU.)

    You are beautiful! You do not need other people's validation for your self-worth.

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