Find Me in Me

I am lost!
Not in the jungle, in the city or in any place. But I lost in myself. Sometime before going out, I stand up in front of the mirror, looked the shadow inside there and ask with a big question mark...."Is that me?"
I'm not look like 'me' anymore. I saw the one inside the mirror as a stranger who look like me. Cold, old , and crimple...oups...do I look like that? No of course not. I look pretty in my husband sight. I look attractive in my male colleague sight...but in my sight....I just...look like a dirty big lier. I don't know where that feeling come from.
I said yes to any one, to make them happy. Because I know exactly if I say 'No', I need to find the reason to say that. And if my reason doesn't approve with them...
I said No if every one said so. Because if I say 'Yes' while all people say 'No'...again I need to find the reason to say that.
I feel like I have obligations to make people around me happy if I agree with what they said so.
Do you think I m a looser?
Sometime without I realized, I lost control of my personality. I said yes when I wanted to say no. I found myself in the midle of the night, but loose it again when sunrise.

Don't know when I'll find my real 'me' in me. Juat me!