Finding the Truth in the Word

The problem with church these days, is they focus too much on what we can't do and they don't tell us what we can do. They're so busy trying to become bigger and more popular by telling you how to not sin, that they make people feel guilty and they say "Oh well, I'm not perfect, so I might as well not even try." Instead, we should feel grateful for God's love and humbled by his greatness and joyful that we are no longer slaves to sin. We should be so in love with God that we love what he loves, and hate what he hates.

And why is it that so many Christians think you have to be really a bad person with a revelation from God in order to preach, so that you can talk about how you used to sin, but Jesus saved your soul and now your much better. I've met leaders who thought that, and I thought that was ridiculous. I'm sorry, I was never promiscuous, I drank a little in high school and tried to feel better by going to a shrink and wound up on medicine. If I had known about Jesus beforehand, I might have never been so wrapped up in my little noggin and would have never gotten sick, but I was constantly worried, reading the gloom and doom news and people kept offering me drugs, but I never took them. People just yelled at me and I was told I could be a model and a girl said everyone hated me. It was a sad time for me because I just wanted to be an artist and I think I was convinced I would never get married because no one asked me out except Chris who said he was psychic and wanted to do drugs. So no wonder everyone thought I was nuts. Everyone around me was either pissed off or crazy. I desperately wanted a conversation but most people just talked about drugs or sex.

The problem with drugs is that it rips families apart and makes them fearful and manipulative. We would care more about getting high than loving on our children and making others feel good.
Now I just don't care about drugs. I have faith. And I know that drugs are usually used by crazy people anyway, Bipolar people self medicate with coke and pot and alcohol, so if you want to be like them, I'll just say they have nice little pills to take that will keep you level. And I know, I've gotten more relief from my demons through meditation. Or as Jesus said, "Be still and know that I am God." I just want to be romantic with my future spouse, and while it would be nice to have a child or two, I am not equipped to have twelve children like my doctor said I would do ten years ago.

No, I just want to live each day like it's my first and remember the wonder of childhood as I take care of ten toddlers. Its like I get to make sure the little ones get the attention they need so they feel good and don't become little bullies. But that's my belief. And I've seen it work. I've seen little boys go from crying for their mother to being well adjusted and explore their world and even lead and be talkative and happy. Isn't success a small gift to give a child?