Foolish

I tried so hard to avoid it, but yet not hard enough

I tried so hard to ignore it, but it just keeps coming up

Not knowing were to turn, I run to the arms of the one

I hope to love

Temporarily relived, momentarily I am free

Alas forced to wake up and return to harsh reality

I wish to turn back the hands of time and erase the day we met

Then as you see, I would not be in this Predicament

Thinking I was to good for that, caught up now

My life seemingly thrown of track

Searching for the answer scared of the truth

Inside I cry hoping that what's growing inside will die

I am not ready, I am afraid, confused such a foolish girl

To get caught up in this sinful world

What should I do, unhappy now my heart and body are consumed

Tormented I am in pain

Playing the scenes out again and again

I am ashamed for constantly giving in to you

What should I do?

Dying a slow and horrific death

Knowing if do not suddenly come to grips, with what I know exists

I will eventually lose more than everything

Scared and alone, I do not know where to turn

I am afraid to say I learned the hard way

Eventually I will come to terms with my reality.

But until then I wallow and grieve for I feel I have committed the

Gravest sin, by wishing to put an end

To what may be

Inside me

La'Sarah-evette Patrice Motley