For Cambria

I had such high hopes for you, my little angel. You were a gift so wanted from Heaven above. But you were taken from me all those years ago, so what was to be never could be.

How I wonder what would have been, how you would have been. What you could have been. These things for me are only dreams, misty recollections that would not see the light of day.

You would be 28 this year, maybe married and a mother. Maybe a career woman. Maybe.

But life is not for maybe. I cannot change the past, I can't bring you back. I can never look back on the milestones that your life could have contained. I can never look forward to the future of you. Your sisters that followed can never know you, only about you.

I have only the memory of you waiting to come into the world, I have nothing more. But I have the knowledge that you are with those who are most important to me, and that they are watching you as they watch me.

My darling Cambria, I only have a fleeting memory of you, but the love I have will never leave me. And when I am called to you, my precious girl, I can finally be your mother.