Getting Through Each Day

People will often ask me how I get through each day with the illnesses I have (CFIDS, Fibromyalgia, Interstitial Cystitis). It has taken me a long time to learn how to cope, but I am finally getting it I believe! Of course, I am human and I have days where I will feel sorry for myself, ask God, "Why me?", and not want to talk or associate with anyone.

When I first became sick, and even up to a year or so ago, I knew I was sick and was different from other people, yet I still tried to go on like I wasn't. If I really had to admit it, take it easier, believe it, then it would be so - does that make sense? I am very independent, controlling (yes, I can admit that), and ambitious, so even though my brain wants to do a lot, my body will stop me. I have to find other ways to challenge myself now.

But for the most part, I try to keep upbeat and positive about the whole experience. What finally happened to me that gave me insight?

I just decided that I have these problems, for right now they are here to stay - I have to accept that and it is something that I can't change. Like it or not, they are here to stay until a cure is found. I am this way for a reason - I think that God has a bigger plan for me than I will ever know and I believe it is to help others. So if I can use my diseases as a way to spread the word, raise awareness, and help others learn how to cope, then it is worth it.

I also want my son to see that you never give up. He truly keeps me going as well and I want him to grow up knowing that even though his mommy is different than his friends' mommys, he will always be able to say that I was not a quitter and that I loved him with all of my heart and taught him to never give up or give in.

It is hard for me to admit my weaknesses, especially on a public site such as this where thousands of people will see. But in order to cope, heal, move on, I have to do it for me.

If you are suffering as well with chronic illness, or any other types of problems, please know that there is help out there and people who are willing to listen. There are many resources available on specific chronic illnesses and just by doing a search on whatever illness you have, you will find help waiting.