God, Hear My Cry

My heavenly father, sorry to bother you again.
I guess you see that it's me.
You are the king of kings and the creator of all.
You decide what will and won't be.

I thank you for the things you have given.
I ask forgiveness for my sins.
I ask for health and safety for my family.
Now here is where my problem begins.

I feel I am spiraling into a very dark place.
I am consumed by this anger, pain, and fear.
I need your help, your love
Oh God, I hope all this you can hear.

It feels as though I can't go on much longer.
The pain is through and through.
I fight the thoughts, the anger, the dark
It just won't go away, I need you.

Hear my cry for peace and healing.
Erase the thoughts from my head.
I don't know how much more I can take,
For this, I'd rather be dead.

Help me, God, to forgive and forget.
Forgiveness would at least be a start.
For there is no closure, no ending
The anger is consuming my heart.

I don't want to be like this.
I do not like the person I see.
Hear my cry and hear it well
Your help is needed by me.

When I think I can go on no longer,
You always pull me through.
With just enough pushing and pulling
I can always count on you.

Amen.