Happy Thoughts

My loneliness makes me laugh
I know can understand
pain and anguish are far better
than any number of pretend friends.
When I am alone, no one can leave me.
No one ever has to say good-bye.
I never have to look at people with a false smile
and unexcited eyes.
I can be myself when I am alone
No one can make fun of me or hurt me.
My pain is my pleasure and my pleasure alone.
No one else can enjoy hurting me because they aren't here.
No one can abuse me.
I never have to pour my heart out,
I never have to share my soul.
No one will ever see me cry.
No one can ever share my selfish joy.

Frustration only catches me in crowds,
Hopelessness only happens in hordes.
Loneliness is my happy thought,
with it I can fly.