Hate Your Life? There is Hope

Why should I hate it? I feel truly blessed with 3 kids, a wonderful husband who supports me and loves me (event though I have so many problems & issues) plus I'm able to stay home and homeschool my kids.

Yet things get so hard & I always wish I could just get a break! I hate complaining though but here is a list of reasons why I should hate my life at times:

1. Sexually abused at age 9-12

2. Date raped for months at age 17 by someone I met online.

3. I had a few miscarriages

4. Heath issues that never seem to end: IC (painful bladder disorder that bring on many more issues), IBS, migraines, sinus issues & allergies. Plus I tend to get other bad health issues such as Cat Scratch Fever, whooping cough & other rare things. Horrible ankles & knees plus other joints. Always hurt in some way or another.

5. It never seems to end. Once I get over one bump in life another one starts. I may one or two good months IF I AM LUCKY then BOOM another thing hits me down.

Just recently I'm getting over whooping cough, then on top of that I twist my ankle and knee. Which equals a week on crutches and more pain. The whooping cough is setting off my sinus issues. The cough meds set off my bladder issues which can set off stomach issues (IBS).

Growing up my mom would always say "If it isn't one thing with her it is another." Not very encouraging to a teen suffering from depression & low self esteem. Then when I married my husband she said "Well, at least someone else can pay your doctor bills."

How do I get over hating my life? By remember someone else always has it worse than me. My kids will ask "Mommy why are you sick all the time?" I will tell them it could be worse. I could have cancer & in the hospital. I could be so sick I couldn't care for them & so on. So it isn't that bad as it seems.

On tough days I tell myself this will soon be over.

It is hard. As a Christian I often ask God please just lay off me & let me have some peace, but it does make you stronger. God does turn the good into bad.

Touched by an Angel once had a quote that brought me to tears and touched me so much. I hope this will bless you as much as it did me. A woman had been raped and was talking to one of the angels. She asked "Where was God when I was being hurt?" or something like that. The angel answered "He right there crying along with you."

God gave us our lives and our freedom to control them. So it is up to us to decide what to do with them. I could sulk and moan at how awful I feel. Or I could get up and make the best of it.

Remember things could be worse. Just look at a "Save the children" site and look at the how some people are starving in the world.

Be thankful for the little things in life. ; )

I didn't write this either to moan and groan about my life. I want people to understand that life is hard and you may have hard weeks, months or even years! Yes, I have had a few rough years! (laugh)

I woke up near tears this morning with an awful migraine. Not a great way to greet the day. The migraine meds my doctor gave me make me short of breath and stuff so I don't take them. Just rely on over the counter meds. They don't help much. But I got up and trying to enjoy the day.

Some people can't get up out of bed or see a playful puppy eager to play with you or silly watch their kids make crafts. So make the most of it and enjoy what you have. ; )

I don't hate my life what so ever & you shouldn't hate yours either. Your life is a gift and has meaning no matter what your faith is. You are here for a reason and a purpose. Take what you hate about your life and figure out a way to use it for some good!

Are you having a bad day today? A bad week or month? Try to think of those in need. Open up your eyes and look around. Even if you can't get out of the house you may catch someone on the news who lost their son in war or a family who lost their whole house in a fire. It will make your problem no matter how awful it seems look very small.

Pray a prayer of THANKS for the little things in life. Even if the only thing you think of is the clothes on your back. Every night before I go to sleep I try to find one thing to tell God THANK YOU for even if it is something silly such as "A roof to keep the rain out." (smile). Try it believe me it works!