Having Friends Can Keep Away Depression

I called an old friend today, and talked to him by the pond by my house to catch up. We talked about the movie business and my poetry book and it was a friendly chat. I was bouncing ideas I had off of him and he sounded like he enjoyed the time we spent talking.

It seems like life just keeps going and going and you need to savor these moments with friends. I saw the fish in the pond. And I think of myself like a big fish in a little pond sometimes. Or maybe a Sunny, but I guess that's ok. I guess I've been working so hard on my book, I get lonely and it feels good to talk to someone you knew for a while whose nice and interesting.

I meet all sorts of people in life, but it's important to develop real friendships in life. Not just hi, how are you? I can't stand too many superficial friendships. I want growth, to see people doing good and getting better. I meet these people who have careers and it must be killing them, because they drink so much.

Life gets lonely when you don't have real friends. I know because everyone was calling me J-lo and I just wanted people to be my friend. I wasn't looking to glom onto J-lo's fame and fortune and it was getting to the point were I didn't think anyone really knew me.

Everyone knew me but they didn't respect that I was an artist, or at least a writer and I wasn't interested in being called J-lo at all. So I cut ties with certain cliquey people who caused me a lot of heart ache and developed my spiritual life and so now I feel like I have a new outlook on life. I don't care if people want to call me a nickname. I prefer Jaybird personally, but I do want people to not call me J-lo I know I don't look that good and I want to be treated like a person. Not be treated like someone I'm not.

I don't dwell on that stupid nickname. But it has caused me trouble. So now when I work, I go by Jay sometimes. Once I got harassed by an artist at work and I don't want people getting the wrong impression of me. I am a Christian. I was trying to wait till marriage and its really hard in New Jersey where men are all commitment phobic. I just wanted a nice life, with friends and family. But sometimes I guess people have other plans.