Help Me I Am Falling!

I stare in the Air, but all I can see is nothingness.
I scream, my mouth wide open, but no sound escapes my lips.
I cry, but no Tears escape my eyes.

When finally those drops of salty water start, I can no longer halt their descend.
Like a Waterfall, unstoppable, rushing through me.
My head aches, my body shakes, I am scared.

I think of you my Love and how you push me away,
my stomach churns with sorrow and pain,
my body refuses food and drink.

So please my Love, my eyes beg silently:
"Help me! Help me, I am falling!"
Don't you know what you are doing to me?

The Days seems empty to me, no reason to rise.
The Night a torture to my soul, being so close and yet so far.
I can't stand your silence anymore.

When did I loose my laughter at Sorrow?
When did I loose my beauty in your Eyes?
My Soul cries out for yours.

You said you love me, but to loose me is nothing.
Nothing to you, is what I am.
Tell me, please tell me that is a lie.

So please my Love, I beg on bended knee.
"Help me! Help me I am falling!"
Don't you know what you are to me?

I look in the Mirror and can no longer recognize the being looking back at me.
When did I loose that Person I once knew?
Can't you see that your disregard is killing me?

I dress for you and force a smile to my lips,
but all I see is whatever stands behind me.
I want to scream and yell, but not even for that I have a voice.

People no longer know me, my eyes are dark.
Family fears for me, but are bound by unspoken code.
I lie to them, I smile and tell them all that I am alright.

So please my Love, I cry deep inside.
"Help me! Help me I am falling."
Don't you know what you are to me?

You are my Star, my Morning Light,
woe to me you got too deep inside.
My Love so fully, helplessly yours.

You are my Breath, my very Air I need.
My warmth when life is cold,
but you are to blind to see.

I don't want to life without your love,
don't take it away from me,
don't kill my heart again.

So please my Love. I scream when I am alone.
"Help me! Help me I am falling!"
Don't you know what you are doing to me?

I once promised my-self never to feel that way,
never to love so deep, I'd break apart.
And then I did it, I met you.

You weren't suppose to be there and neither was I,
don't you see, it was planned
for you and me to, to, oh damn!

That knife looked good today, but I won't quit,
have to try just one more time,
to have you see that your lack of love is killing me.

I sit alone, my room is dark.
You have gone far away.
No longer here, to hear me scream your very name.

You have delivered me from pain.
I know that I must find a way to heal.
I close me eyes and scream out loud:

"Help me! I have fallen! Help me to rise again!"