Hermaphrodite Confessions: Life as an Intersexed Male or Female

I've gone crazy! I must have! What else could possibly explain why the truth looks to be a lie? What I have to say seems so impossible! I have no credibility! No one believes me! I could say anything! It doesn't matter! It just doesn't matter! Let me give you an example. Guess what? I am more than just a girl. I have something extra that may come to a surprise to you. I know you won't believe me, so I'm just going to tell you. I have boy parts. Yep! I am intersex, a chimera true hermaphrodite, at best guess. Does that make me crazy? Certain people think so. Does this make me a danger to myself or others? I think not!

I realize that some people do end their lives soon after they find out that they are intersex. I'm not like that. I'm very glad to know what I am sexually. If only there was a way to do something about my birth certificate saying that I'm female. Oh well! I dress as a woman, so there is no question in your mind that I am female, until I say otherwise. Then, you will think that I'm lying. I must be a crazy woman! My credibility goes right down the toilet! If I am made fun of, no one will believe me. I'll just be a social outcast in this cruel world. People may say that I'm crazy, but I just don't care! Look up Matthew 19:12 and read about the eunuchs sometime when you are otherwise bored.

Look up other verses about eunuchs in the Bible. According to the Bible, I'm male and I should be able to marry a woman. You know what? I just spent almost 15 years married to my ex-husband. Did that make him or me gay? Not really. I tried to keep the sex part straight as best I could throughout our marriage. Being both sexes, I can pick and choose. Lucky me, I was able to give birth to my two girls. My trapped phallus was re-arranged after childbirth into my vagina. I'm very happy with my sexual arrangement. I don't expect you to believe me.

I know I sound crazy! Let me tell you what is really irritating about being part male while also being part female. I produce sperm. Sperm is actually found in my urine. Now mind you, sperm is of absolutely no significance in urine, unless we are talking about someone like me who has not had sex in a long while. Then, my credibility flies out the window when I very truthfully say that I have not had sex recently. You know what? My doctors know what I am as soon as they do my pelvic exam. Then, once my doctor sees my phallus, and sees exactly where that sperm is coming from, I'm grilled about whether or not I have a female sex partners. I'm not stupid! I know that I am not able to use protection if I ever have a female sex partner. She would have to be the one to use protection. I've known this since I was a teenager in 10th. grade. I do not have a female sex partner. I just am not believed! Oh, I just got to tell you this. Squished male anatomy hurts really bad during the pelvic exam!

I kept all of this information hidden from my husband for many years, until after the divorce that he forced upon me. We all know that truth is stranger than fiction. So, if you want to look crazy like me, just tell the craziest truth, no matter how insane it sounds. Be bold and brave. This world is cruel!

But do you even believe me?