How I am Coping with My Mother's Illnesses

No matter how strong our faith and belief in God, death is still scary, is it not? Cancer, heart disease, diabetes, etc. all are horrible illness that run the risk of ending in death. Currently my worries are on the health of my mother. She has gone through two different cancers, lost her uterus and fallopian tubes, along with her dreams of another child, and is now battling issues with her heart. One could say she's kicked cancer's butt twice she'll have no problem with her heart disease. Although, that may be true, it doesn't stop one from worrying.

I have faith that my mother will be fine, that her doctors will take care of her and help her to regain a better quality of life. Yet, I can't stop worrying about her surgeries, her medicines, her problems, and most of all her morale. It's difficult to experience a serious illness much less surgeries for that illness.

All I have are questions. Would God really take her when she's so young? How do I give all my worry and hurt over to God? How do I help her through this time and still be strong? How do I survive if she doesn't?

Although, I have dealt with death several times in my life it is not the same as loss of a parent. A friend of mine recently lost a parent, which regardless of their relationship took its toll on her. I don't really know what she is going through but I can certainly understand how hard it must be. I am now looking at loosing my mother sooner than anticipated and am left feeling so alone. I do not want to tell her how I feel, yet wouldn't it be wrong not to? How do you deal with loosing a parent? How do you recover? How do you deal with their serious illness? How do you take care of them without loosing yourself?

Life is wonderful. Life is a gift. Sometimes it may seem difficult but I think it is ever so important to believe those two statements. We should appreciate what little time we do have here on earth and celebrate it with as many people as possible. We may not be able to take it with us when we go, but it is my opinion, that our memories, our connections with those we love, will follow us wherever we travel. So, maybe rather than struggling through illness we should be walking with our heads high through life, however long it may be.