I Am Doing This!

We only dreamed that we awoke. I do not see why that should seem a strange idea. I believe a mass of physical bodies, scrambling about a great rock in space for no apparent purpose--ruled by a wrinkled lump of 60% fat--that to me is strange indeed.

Mind is very powerful, and never stops creating. The one Self that we are became afraid within the awesome power of its (our) creation. We fell into a deep sleep and dreamed that we awoke "here". We perceived a gap, and mind instantly filled the gap (that was not actually there). We shattered our Self into many selves.

It is not our Creator's Will that we be separate selves, isolated one from another. Thus, it is not our will, either. There is but one Will. This is the way it looks to me:

1. We project images with/onto our perfect mind.
2. We forget that we project the images: "I am doing this!"
3. We react to the world as if it were outside us, thus outside our control.

We transposed "I am doing this!" with "This is being done to me!"

Let that line stand alone. Look at it. When I become angry, the last thing I want to declare is that I am doing this myself, and to myself. But I want to awaken. I am determined to see. What we call seeing is only image-making. We are deeply confused. But this need not be. Since it is not our Creator's Will, nor ours, it must be illusion, and we can wake at any moment (in our terms of time.) Once we let in a little light, introduce just a sliver into the darkness we have made, the whole of light shines through...simply by being light. Do you see? It is not true that we cannot see these things.

The keys, the screen, the hum of the computer's fan...all these are illusion. Yet through these illusions (darkness) comes light (knowledge.) Some part of me is forming these illusions. I lost track of that part of me, now focused so intensely; I am so fixated with physical "reality", that the beautiful reality of who and what I really am seems strange and alien.

We are perfectly able to awaken and see that we have been Home all along. In fact, we did awaken. What we think is an ongoing world, held hostage to a long linear time, is but a memory of one mad instant. We keep hitting REPLAY.