I Don't Wanna Know

I don't wanna know
where i'm gonna go
because I know where i've been

People think it isn't so bad, they way i'm living now
but they don't understand i'm fighting with an inner child
and its been awhile, smoking on a little trees
drinking hennesy, but now I feel the enemy

What I see when I look into the f'n mirror
makes me want to disappear on some real sh..
see you can walk in my shoes, you can skip to my beat,
but I garentee that you could never feel this

Im so empty and cold
Im so out of my soul
Im so out of control
Im so distant

I've sold ounces of dro
all the times that I stole
all the pistols I hold
Im so twisted

All the women i've known
all the lies i've been told
gave me sh.. that i've grown
sadistic

F a heaven or hell
F a god or a devil
man Im a rebel
either way i'm on a s.. list

All the happiness, Yea I must have missed it
because im riding around town with my head low
suicidal, every day it don't surprise you
I ain't messing with that, I already tried with the meds though

I will go the other way that the rest go
while im here just laying in my bed so
since I have nothing but time until I die
until then, I guess i'll sit and wonder where the dead go

I don't wanna know
where i'm gonna go
because I know where i've been