I Drink Alone

Going Comfortably Numb

Melissa Lawson
When love has left me hurting,
and I just want to go numb;
When life has left me cold,
and ceases to be any fun;
When no one seems to care,
and there's no one to call my own;
What else can I do?
I drink alone.

When pain arises inside my heart,
and feels as sharp as a knife;
When heartbreak destroys all the joy
I feel in my life;
When the one I love ignores my pain,
and shows me it is done;
When I need to stop feeling,
I drink alone.

Comfortably numb is the goal in mind;
I'd rather be numb than hurt.
I drink until the pain is gone,
and I can stop feeling like dirt.
I drink when no one sees I'm weak,
weakness cannot be shown.
There's only one thing I can do;
I drink alone.

I must get him out of my heart;
I must get him out of my head.
I must find my joy in life,
and stop walking like the dead.
I must continue without him,
let him see my pain is gone.
How can I accomplish this?
I only can drink alone.

Published by Melissa Lawson

I'm a single mom of one wonderful little girl. I've moved around a lot in my lifetime, and have been through many things. I consider myself a survivor.  View profile

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  • Melissa Lawson10/29/2009

    Then you know someone understands you, AJ. Keep your chin up. Things can only better.

  • AJ10/28/2009

    These feelings are EXACTLY the way I am feeling. My heart has been shattered. And the only way to go on and actually go to work is when I drink. It numbs me. I%27m only freaking 23 years old%21 But it%27s the only thing that works%21 It makes me ok again. I know that God will help me%2C but it hasn%27t happened yet. I feel so alone. No one understands what I%27m going through cuz they don%27t have this problem%21 I don%27t know what to do. This poem brought tears to my eyes cuz it is exactly me. I dont know what to do.... I can%27t function right unless I drink and I know that%27s not the right thing%21%21%21

  • SAIKAT KUMAR DUTTA10/11/2009

    Very heart-felt poem. Nicely written.

  • Nita Mukherjee10/11/2009

    Well expressed.

  • Sherry Tomfeld10/11/2009

    When I finally found out that I am never alone (God is always with me)and when I finally figured out that I was indeed worthy of living a happy life..I no longer had to drink alone. Thanks for sharing.

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