I Know You Feel Me

I know you're there. I know you feel me. I know you know I'm here. You're ears haven't developed yet, but you hear me regardless. The heavens have yet to bless you with the eyes of their beauty, or the feet that will carry you during your days on this earth, or the hands that you will tuck beneath your head as you sleep. But you were given a soul the minute you were conceived. From that moment, I felt you there.

Your mother's eyes changed when it happened. I can't explain how, but I noticed it from the very start. They became brighter, as if a flame had been lit there and started to burn. That's the first time that I knew you were there. After that she began to feel sick all the time, early in the morning, with dizziness and nausea, the irrefutable signs of life within life. A smile lifted my heart as I felt you growing stronger. I didn't say anything at first. It wasn't necessary right then. It was our little secret for the moment. We giggled together. Mommy would find out soon enough, and so she did. We were shopping for groceries when she finally realized you were there. Suddenly, she felt you deep inside of her. She was scared and a little surprised. I was neither. I simply smiled and quietly guided her toward the light of understanding. A blood test confirmed your physical existence. Mommy was so happy. She had been waiting for you for so long.

I can feel you in my heart and in my soul. I hear you in my thoughts. I can't wait to see you. I can't wait to hold you in my arms and smell you. I'm reading to you every night, Orson Scott Card and Tad Williams. Tales of valiant knights and beautiful princesses, stories from my childhood.

In my minds eyes I see three circles joined in priceless graceless harmony.

Two full as the moon

One hollow as a crown

Two from under the sea five fathoms down

One from the earth deep beneath the ground

The whole a mark of high renown

Tell me what can it be?

That's my favorite line from Clash of the Titans, the princess and her riddle, "Mark and remember". We'll watch it together when you get here. I'll download it, along with The Labyrinth and the Never Ending Story. Oh how you're going to love Falkor the luck dragon and Atreyu, the young hero fighting to save the universe from the destruction of the terrible Nothing. I grew up with these stories. They inspired me. I hope they will do the same for you.

It won't be long now, honey. Take you're time and enjoy the comfort of mommy's warmth. Daddy knows how much it means to you right now. We'll be together soon enough. Until then, we'll have many nights of valiant knights and long conversations.

Love,

Daddy