I Quit Smoking...Again!

Today, as I sit here and write this I am forty nine days smoke free. This is one of the best feelings I have ever had in my life. I'm free! Not only am I free of the nicotine but, I am also free of all those little things which go hand in hand with smoking.

Several months ago I wrote an article about my attempt to quit smoking. Yeah, it's a pretty humorous article, but the fact remains that I didn't make it through more than a couple weeks of not smoking.

I believe the biggest reason I couldn't stop smoking before now was because my husband didn't want to quit until I already had. Seeing him smoke when I couldn't was just too much.

I began taking his cigarettes out of his packs and lighting up when he was at work. I felt like a rebellious teen sneaking around. This, obviously didn't last long and I began to smoke full time again.

Alas, one fine day my husband and I sat here and decided simply not to smoke at all that day. The next day we did the same, and the next, and the next. All of the same symptoms from the first time took effect this time also, but in the long run we have some really great benefits to enjoy.

For me, I think the biggest change I have noticed is I don't have to go to the store every day for smokes. That is huge! We live in a very rural area so we can't just run to the store whenever we need one thing. But you can bet we did go when we ran out of smokes. Wha ha ha ha, not any more evil nicotine!

I am an addict though. I have had a rough couple of days with cravings, but I just get through them and within a minute or two they are gone. It's nice to know they will pass because in the beginning you think the cravings will never go away.

The best part of this by far is being able to tell my kids "Don't smoke, it's bad for you." And not being a hypocrite when I say it. I am finally a good example for my children when it comes to not smoking.

Furthermore, my kids are not being subjected to second hand smoke anymore. We didn't smoke around them a lot, but still... it's enough. I am proud of my husband and myself. We have overcome a huge obstacle in our health and parenting goals. Now...we just need to keep it this way, as I said before, I am an addict which means it will always be something I crave.