I Thought

I thought...
That I was stable,
and I didn't care what you thought.
Oh, I must be lying through my teeth.

I thought...
That I was special,
and you loved me for me.
Oh, I must have been blind to the truth.

I thought...
That I was beautiful,
and you thought that I was too.
But, oh, you were just using me to get to her.

I thought...
That I was yours,
and I meant the world to you.
But I don't.

And I'm not yours.
And I feel lost,
and scared,
and lonesome.

I thought...
That the pain would go away,
But it hasn't.

I thought...
That if I forgot about it, it wouldn't phase me.
But it did.

And I can't breathe without you,
live without you.

I thought...
That the pain would go away.

It's only gotten worse.