I Write What I Feel

I have been asked by many to explain my writing. People are always asking me where my material comes from and a whole host of other questions about my writing. I decided to write this editorial article explaining it all. I will also give my readers the background of how I became a writer.

Where It All Began

I was sitting in my communications class at the community college I attended where I got my business degree. It was then called Muskingum Tech, but is now called Zane State. It is located in Zanesville, Ohio. I had just finished my first technical paper and was waiting for the Professor to hand it back to me. She walked to my table, handed me the graded paper, and said she would like to talk to me after class.

I looked at the paper, "A+." I was on top of the world.

When the class ended I walked to the Professor's desk and waited for her to tell me what she wanted to discuss with me. She stacked her papers on her desk, looked at me with a big smile on her face, and said, "Becky, I was very thrilled with the paper you turned into me. You have an amazing talent. I want to use this paper as an example for future students of this class. I have made a copy of it. With your permission, I will be able us it to give the students an example of a perfectly written paper. Is it ok for me to use it for this purpose.?"

"Sure, you may use it. I am honored you have chosen it." I said. The pride within me was immense. I was beaming inside. It gave me a sense of accomplishment, which until that moment, I had never felt.

"I would suggest that you pursue writing as a career. You will do great. You may not become rich, but I am sure you will do well."

Well it took many years before writing became something I would do as a profession. Only in the last three years to be exact. I had to find more courage. At the time I was in college, I was still living in my abusive marriage. The pride of accomplishment was dashed when my husband found out about it.

I still never forgot that moment with the Professor, and it is the motivation which fueled my eventual start into the writing field.

What I Write About and Why

I began writing for my website alone eight years ago. It was my first real attempt at sharing my experience of family violence with others in written form. Writing was always a way for me to release my feelings, and it is what has kept me from loosing my mind. During my years of abuse and turmoil, I kept a journal. This was the only way I could release the feelings buried within me. This is where my writing first began, but was only for my own personal well being and was never shared with others.

Three years ago I began perusing the publishing of my work. Many foiled attempts happened before a book was finally published. I have discovered through this experience, it is not truly my calling. Not that I can't do it, but it just seems the end piece was not exactly what I wanted. It turned into more a what the publisher wanted then what I or my co-author wanted.

I still write about life, feelings, and my own opinions on many topics. The topics will often change, but my style is one of honesty and conviction. I doubt if this aspect of my writing will ever change. I believe in searching within myself and expressing my true feelings and beliefs. By doing this, I share a piece of myself with my readers in everything I write. Even my fiction writings are based on my own beliefs, opinions, experience, and fantasies. I had a publisher tell me that a good writer will put a piece of themselves in what they write. I don't know if I am a good writer, but do believe in offering myself to my readers.

I consider myself a beginner, and a student of both life and writing. I observe the world around me and evaluate it based on my own convictions. I do not expect my readers to always agree with what I write. I am who I am and if they read what I write, great. If they don't, I will still keep writing until someone reads it. I know some people have read my writings. This is expressed in the numbers of visitors who have clicked on my website.

I do not write for personal gain. If my writing make a little money, then that is only an added benefit. It is never my primary reason for writing. I am not writing to get rich. I have one book published with Publish America called, "Chaos Was Her Bread; Calamity Was Her Water." It was written with another writer. It is available at Amazon and through Publish America. It has not sold a bunch, but it is fine with me. Just getting a book published is a great boost to my ego. I certainly will continue writing no matter what happens with the book. I am not a person who is going to loose her mind just because a book is not selling.

What type of writing I do will greatly depend on my health. Having Multiple Sclerosis and the many other health problems I deal with continually, confines me to my bed and often minimizes my ability to concentrate and focus. For this reason and many others, I doubt that I will write any more books. Since finding Associated Content and having published articles here, I will probably confine myself to editorials like this one. They are shorter writings, but can express the ideas and conviction I wish to share with my readers. The true test of a great writing is not in its size, but in the ability of the writing to reach the readers and offer them something special or helpful.

My Future as a Writer

You can be sure I will always have an opinion about something. As long as, I have opinions, I will always have something to write about. As long as, my health allows me to write, I will write.

No one can predict the future. Where my writing will lead me is in the hands of God and fate. I don't expect to be a rich writer. I do expect that someone somewhere will read what I write. I hope it inspires, helps, or makes someone feel a bit better. At the very least, I hope someone will feel less alone with their suffering. It is my hope to help people to find peace amidst their turmoil.

My primary goal for the future is not much different then what I have been doing for the past 8 years. It is to share my experience; to offer hope and support; and to let people who suffer know they are not alone. I want those who hurt to know there is someone out there who understands their pain.

Life is short and painful. Knowing someone cares is often the best way we have to cope with life's trials. I hope my writing will let my readers know that within this writer lies a heart filled with love, compassion, and concern for all those who suffer. If this is felt by my readers, I have accomplished all I could ever hope for in life.

I am a simple person with a simple life. I am disabled with health problems and do not have the option of taking life for granted. I live each day to the fullest. Writing helps me do this. It is my passion, and my great achievement apart from my children. My achievement is not measured by the amount of money I have received, but by the satisfaction and pride I have for the work I complete.

I do not look at what I am unable to do as result of my disease. I only focus on what I can do. My writing is what I can do, and I love sharing it with those who choose to read it.

A Special Thank you

I want to offer a special thank you to all the people who have supported me in my writing. My family, all the publishers of my work, my friends, visitors to my website, and all the readers who read what I have written.