If You've Had a Head Injury and Still Struggle to Live Some Type of a Normal Life Read On.

I guess one of the most frustrating things is that when somebody is trying to explain how to do something to me, and for some reason I just don't get it. I mean, I know that I'm not stupid. It's just that sometimes the way that people explain things; I just don't understand. This has be a factor which has kept me from advancing in jobs in the past and it still continues to haunt me.

I always need to repeat what they said and clarify just to make sure that I have it right in my own mind and when I still don't have it right and they say that they just don't know how else to explain it, that; is very frustrating. This can be frustrating for them because they're brain functions normally and they have no idea where I'm coming from. At times, I get totally frustrated with things and the way my brain processes information.

I had a head injury when I was little, so what? Right? I wish that it was just that simple but the fact of the matter is, that it's not.

Maybe it has been my unwillingness to admit that I'm different or just my sheer stubbornness but, whatever it is; it continues to cause frustration in my life. This must also be one of the reasons that I prefer to be alone. I don't want to be faced with the humiliation of not understanding something simple in front of a crowd. That would really shoot down my self esteem; as if it's not bad enough already.

I have not given up yet and I probably won't anytime soon. This fact has driven me towards the area of self employment where I feel that my talents can be utilized to the fullest extent without being stuck in quote on quote, normal job. I still have the frustration of trying to deal with myself and my short comings; but, at least I'm the only one that has to deal with me.

I mean, I like to be a giver and I like to give anywhere I can; I just don't like to bring down anybody else's parade. Does that make sense?